Here we go again!!

So I am really trying to remember to update my blog, I promise!! Well this last week has not been good at all, and so far this week is not starting off any better. I have really not been feeling well at all. I can't say that any one thing is wrong, but alot of things just aren't feeling right. This is all made worse by the fact that on friday I have to go get a right heart cath to measure how bad my pressures in my pulmonary vein have gotten over the last 2 years! I really don't know if I wan't to know the number when they do get it because I already know it is worse than it was. The worse the number is will decide wether or not to increase my meds, or if there is nothing left to do! I have a bad feeling about this one, and for once I actually am nervous to have this procedure done. That is not normal for me I don't get nervous about alot, but this time I am! Oh well, I know it is coming and I will just enjoy life no matter what they say, no tears and not alot of fears. Just nervous about the procedure, and now I am rambling. That's it for now, and I will try to keep updated!!