Rambling

So you can guess what time it is of course, if you have read any other of my blogs, it is early Saturday morning and I just felt like rambling! We finally got our van back the other day from the Honda dealership and I have to say that they did an awesome job! Of course it helps when your father in law is friends with the service lady. We purchased an extended warranty and this time it paid for itself and then some. The total cost was almost 900.00 dollars and it only cost us around 200.00!!!! This is the only time we have had an extended warranty that ever amounted to a "hill of beans" as my dad would say. Now it feels like I am driving a brand new car!!! Wishful thinking of course, but it is nice to have both cars operating properly, (for now that is)!! It is a very great thing to have a little bit of money in savings to help pay for all of these car problems, without that I think that our house would have to be sold, and who knows if that would even have helped!! We are all getting excited for Halloween here, even the kids and Trish are getting excited. I am not sure if the kids even know what they want to be yet but they were supposed to have decided by yesterday so we can get their costumes put together. They are also getting excited for their Florida trip, (which if it weren't for her family would never have happened this year, or any other year for that matter), and I am getting excited to have a week to myself as well. I know that sounds a little selfish, and usually before the end of the week I am ready for all of the noise and ruckus that they bring with them to return, this may be the last time for a long time that they go to Florida because the cousin with the timeshare has a lot of family that want to start going as well. It is only fair that he takes them because he has taken trish and the boys and her family almost every year for the last two or three years. Without that nobody would be going at all!! He has been really great for the family, and my boys love to go with him!! Justin kind of has him wrapped around his finger (not hard to imagine that), he just knows when his bigger cousin need a friend and will go and hold his hand and hang around him all day. Last year their cousin was having a hard time and justin really brightened his day, it's kind of hard to imagine a 5 year old being that in tune with the feelings and emotions of much older people, but justin can just tell when someone needs a friend, and he never fails to fill the position!!! I think that his dimples and smile really help, they do keep him out of trouble when he is pushing your buttons a little bit!! Well I think that I am done rambling now, thanks for listening, or reading that is!!!! BYE!!

CARS STILL OR AGAIN!!!

Like I said above, I don't know if I should put still or again. At least this time it is the van which we haven't had to put much money into yet.(Knock on wood!!) There is something wrong with the front end, but we do have an extended warranty that has a small (but not small enough), deductible that keeps us from going into bankruptcy on repairs thank heavens. I swear cars can be the best and worst things in the world to own, next to houses that is. For those who didn't hear we had to replace our front windows, and a good portion of our stucco, on the house this year. We managed to do that and then the wind up springs on the garage door broke!! Then the jeep needed not one, but two pretty major pricey repairs on it, the last of which was just last month, and now the van. I don't think we will ever break even on our credit cards, especially since we were still paying off some of my medical bills from 4 years ago, before I was granted disability, and we didnt qualify for any financial assistance because as far as they where concerned until I was medically disabled I should still be able to work. You really have to love how all of these things work, or not, together. Such as cruddy medical insurance, very time consuming medical tests just to find a diagnosis, and the states inability to grant disability without a six month wating period mandatory. Oh well I just have to take it all with a grain of salt I guess, what else can you do??? BYE.

WHAT IS THIS A COMPETITION???

Trisha, came downstairs today and informed me that she had blogged today, and she then proceeded to laugh at me. I think that this has become a competition for her, the problem with that is I have more time to do this since I never sleep at night anyway!! So instead of laughing or making fun of her I decided to spend part of my "awake" time to blog again just to spite her. Not really, I just like to blog as often as I can, I will probably grow out of this "urge" to blog soon so I had better do it while I still enjoy it, right?? I spent the better part of my afternoon today doing what we in cub scouts call the headache paperwork! Well that is what I call it! Those who have been, or are now in, cub scouts know it better as rechartering. It seems to come earlier and earlier each year. When I was first put in as the committee chairman last year it was just in time to do the recharter, I had no clue what I was in for! It was finished and done, in due time of course, with a lot of questions from me to the "retired" chairperson. The Internet was supposed to be easier I was told, but since I still didn't know what I was doing it just made it worse. Anyway the Internet scouting stuff does seem to get better as it moves along and this year went a "little" bit quicker, until I found out just how bad I made a mess of things last year and had to make quite a few corrections this year to make it all work properly. You have to love scouting!!! My calling is rather easy for the most part, it only requires one meeting a month, and going online to report all the badges and rank advancements each month. OH yea and going to the scout shop to pick it all up. Hee hee I almost forgot that part! Just kidding!!! It actually has been a good calling for me especially since I never know what will be going on with my health from day to day, and am not always able to attend all of my meetings on Sundays. I am glad they found a calling for me that I can fulfill, I know that sounds weird coming from me, but I was getting a little bit jealous of trisha always having a calling in either nursery and since then primary. The right word is not jealous, but I did need a calling so I can still feel useful in my tired, decrepit old age.:) Just kidding, although I sometimes wonder if I wasn't born with an 80 year old body!! For those of you who know me well, you probably think that all of the "just kidding's" aren't necessary as the things I am typing sound like my type of humor, but there are some people who read my blog who don't know me that well and might think that I am being morbid. I promise that I am not. Until next time!!!

Still Awake

So here it is 1:15 a.m. on a Saturday morning and of course I am still awake. Oh well I guess it is a good time to blog as long as I spell check everything! One of our friends talked on her blog about how you can sign up to follow other peoples blogs. That way if you are like me, and you don't always comment on every ones blog they will at least know that you are reading it. I though that was pretty cool so I added that gadget to my blog so if you want to read and not comment I can at least see who all is reading. So if you are are reading this and your not to busy go ahead and sign up! (It only takes a second!) Pretty cool huh! I am still having bad days and good, but it is still mostly bad days. I am hoping that changes pretty soon as this kind of sucks!!! It is horrible when no matter how much sleep or how little you do each day you still have no energy what so ever. Well like I said before I am still here and that is always a good thing, at least in my book it is! Well on towards tomorrow and a new day!!!

Good things!!

So Trisha has had to fill out FMLA papers every year so that if she has to miss work for an extended period of time to take care of me she won't lose her job. So I took the papers to get my doctor to fill them out and get them signed, and he writes on the form that if trish could work from home it would be helpful to my health. Trish has been trying to get her work to let her work from home for quite a while and her name is on the list to do it, but the list is long and they only allow so many people to work at home. Well the HR department decided that the doctor was right and they called trish's boss and asked her to let her come home and work! A great blessing for me!! She does have to go in a couple days a week, but she can stay home and help me on the other days and still get all of her work done it will be great!! I hope! We don't as of yet know how long it will take to actually get everything set up, but my hopes are up that it won't take to long. They also told her she could pick up some hours on Saturday so that she can make a little extra money to help out with our bills. This will be hard for her, but it will also relieve some of the stress on her mind about how everything will get paid. That's all for now.

Health update.

For those of you who know me, I am not much of a complainer when it comes to my health problems. At least I try not to be! I started blogging as a way to keep any of those who wanted to know about my health, updated! It has kind of turned into more of a thought spot where I can say what I want. I guess that is not such a bad thing especially since I have never been much of a journal keeper! Anyway, my health is kind of hovering between bad and good lately. Not just because of the diabetes, but also the whole sleeping problem. I really tried to stay awake during the conference sessions this weekend but it seemed like if I didn't stay on my feet and moving I would literally fall asleep where I stood. I slept more this weekend than I usually do during a whole entire week. I don't really want to tell my hypertension doctor until I find a new sleep doctor and talk to him first. The reasoning behind this? My specialist will more than likely want to run a bunch of tests on me, and more than likely keep me in the hospital for awhile.(Not the best use of my time if you ask me!!!) Anyway I will try a new sleep doctor first and see if he can help me. So as far as my health goes you can see why the fatigue is such a problem, it is especially hard on Trish because she has to pick up my slack at home. This is my health update in a nut shell!!!

Just an after thought, any of my family,(you know who you are!) that may be reading this, send me your blog sites addresses so I can follow you and your family fun!! Please!!

WORK???!!!

So I decided to try and find a very small part-time job that wouldn't be too physically demanding. Also one that would allow me to get my boys off to school before I had to go in. WOW!!! I new it wouldn't be easy but man has it been a long time. I haven't worked in over 4 years now and I forgot how hard it was to even apply for a job, let alone one that could work around by physical disabilities and schedule at the same time! Also, my disability only allows me to make so much money before they stop the benefits on me and the kids. Once they stop them they told me that if for any reason I had to quit my job or could no longer keep my job it would take another 6 months to reapply for benefits!! That really makes it a limited job, one that can only be only a few hours a week, or that pays way to low for any one to want it! Once again just more troubles building up on the home front!! Well, if anyone knows of anything that resembles that kind of job let me know k. LOL...HAHA.. By the way that is me laughing because that is usually all I can do and it makes me feel better so there!!! BYE

CARS!?

I really don't like dealing with broken down cars, and I don't know anyone who does. We have this 10+ year old Jeep, it is paid for, but lately it just seems like we can't stay ahead of the fix it problems. We had to put money into it last month, which we of course did not have, and then again this month we had more problems that required more non-existent money from our pockets. I just hate trying to stay ahead of car problems especially when you can't afford to repair or replace the car itself!! Oh well I know for a fact that we are not the only people with this problem, but I just had to vent about it. So there, I think that I am done venting at least for now!!!

It's coming soon!!

We have started putting up some of the Halloween decorations, and I must say I am getting excited! Even though my costume this year might not compare to last years, I am already planning what I want to do next year. If trish will let me that is! She thinks I am going way overboard on this holiday, but I still have fun, and she still helps me! The whole health thing is always an issue and my body is still fighting of the site infection I had. My sugars are progressively getting better though, and as long as I really keep track of my carbs they should. HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!! Sorry just had to do that!! Later.

Let's try this again!

Lets try this again, just like the title reads. I posted a little too soon I guess, because I had another visit with my Endocrinologist today and guess what?
Yep that's right, another change to my Insulin dosing! It is working though, I am getting closer and closer to getting my sugar levels to just the right spot. People who think that diabetes is no big deal, like I used to think, just don't have a clue to what people have to go through on a daily basis just to stay healthy. Even with all of the health problems I have been through in all my years, I think that the diabetes is one of the toughest. It is really hard because I can't exercise to help myself, thanks to the hypertension! Oh well all fights are good fights when you are winning, right! For any of those who might be going through problems of your own, don't stop fighting and don't give up!! There is always someone out there who has it worse, I have met a few of these people myself, in my many visits to clinics and hospitals, and some of them make me think that I have it easy! One of the things that I have learned is that those who stay upbeat about it all usually win more struggles than those who give up and feel defeated. I have met a few of these people as well, because my specialist and the nurses sometimes ask me to talk to some of the newly diagnosed hypertension patients just to let them know that this disease, while terminal, doesn't mean you will die soon. It just means you have to fight harder and do what the doctors ask you to do! Look at me, my diagnosis was very grim, but I am still here and the medicine is working great. Is it a lot of work?(the question that I have been asked the most by some of the new patients thinking of going on Flolan like myself) Of course it is, but it won't seem like much of a comparison when you start feeling better, for me the side effects where the worst part but even most of them went away after awhile. I think that I am rambling again so I will apologize now if I am!! Until later.

Well here it is after midnight and I am still awake, of course! So I decided to try and do some more blogging. Part of the fun of having an infection like I do is that you have to take antibiotics. The antibiotics that I am on require that I drink lots of liquids, this poses another problem for me. The problem that I have is due to the fact that I also have to take water pills to help keep fluids away from my right heart. That was the only cause they could find for my 911 call two years ago, to much fluid around my heart. So even if I was tired enough to sleep right now I am using the restroom too much to stay in bed for very long! What a nice surprise for me huh!!

We spent some time getting out the decorations for my favorite holiday. Halloween for those of you reading this blog for the first time and haven't had time to read the others that were posted earlier. And to my wonderful surprise we found we had more decorations than we originally thought! I also spent time trying to figure out how to make my costume look better, I LOVE Halloween!!!
You all probably think that I am nuts but I enjoy having 1 day a year to scare the older kids, who really are too old for trick or treating anyway, right out of their pants! Trish thinks I am just funny about the whole thing, but she thankfully keeps me in check on how much I can do so that I don't overdo and spend the next three days in bed trying to recuperate! Did I mention that I LOVE Halloween!!! LOL. That's all for now.